a little mental meandering

Here is an internal observation for you. Now, some (one) of my critics may think that I am overanalyzing this topic, but this is simply how my mind works, and truly how I feel. It is really good for me to get this kind of thought process in progress out of my mind and out into the open. The topic is “motivation.” What truly motivates a Christian man to be the best that he can be? Well, I would like to think that God would stand to be the most important motivation. Ohh, by the way I am talking about myself in case you hadn’t picked up on that one. I’ll just get to the point. Janice acts like this motivation that is very clear and direct. Janice lives 2,196 miles away too. God is with me; literally with me of every second of every minute of every day. But, I so often forget this. It is like even though his grace and mercy wraps me like a warm blanket, I tend to quickly forget all he does. Janice serves as a direct reminder to me for all the things that I want in life, but also and more importantly who I want to be in Christ. I so look forward to hearing from her each day. It’s not a nervous tension; I’m not waiting by the phone anxiously waiting. It is a clear and lovely feeling to know that she is there, loving me for who I am, and that is really a HUGE MOTIVATION! It’s funny though, God does that and so much more. He is the only perfect example of unconditional love. But it is so easy to forget. I better understand each day why he created us to be such community oriented and relationship minded people. We need that connection. The connection feels really good too. I learn a lot about my relationship with Janice and directly correlate it to my relationship with Christ. It’s soo good. But dang do I need to die to my stupidity and sinful nature every single day. I wonder what that is supposed to look like. What happens when a human being you care very much for shares in the main motivation with God for bettering yourself? I’m not sure entirely yet, but I’ll keep trying to figure it out. I feel really good about it though, really, really good about it.

This morning at the YMCA (childcare) I taught 4 elementary school boys and 1 girl how to play Texas Hold'em. I don't know if that is not a good thing to do, but they really enjoyed it, and I am surprised how smart those little ones are. I mean they really pick up on things really fast. I of course was winning though, so they aren't that good. . . .