I'm friggin tired, but can't sleep.

can't sleep, so i thought i could look for pictures that make me sleepy.

happy tuesday.

I don't much feel like writing, i believe i will just say that i had a great time with my mom this morning, we talked to kate(main nurse@Northwestern) it was good, and i am happy with that. Jessica is awesome, and makes me feel all cozy inside...................just kidding........................not really. or am i? you confused yet? me too.


goodnight.

your so so good

I surrender my all. Yeppers, all for you my main man. i surrender my eyes, my ears, my future, my past, my sins, my happiness, i surrender my everything. I surrender my friends, even jared, i surrender my lesbian sister, i surrender my biological syster, and her fiance. JOHN LUSTER, coolest mo-fo from cally you ever did meet. I surrender my old dog, Jackson Bean Riley.....I love you jackson, you tought me so much, and you were just a silly happy golden retriever. I surrender my relationships in the pasts, i surrender my relationships in the future, i surrender that vacation that i havn't been on yet, but i have my woman with me, there is a lot of sand, and ummmmm i think a strawberry dackerie...........my fav. drink. what else do i surrender? lemme tell you, i surrender mike gann, and his girl kaitlyn. I surrender Kimi Gibson, Matt Kern, Derrick Maranca, i surrender all the really horrible teachers in my past who didn't teach me a damn thing!!!!!! surendered, done, good, lets move on. I surrender alcohol, i surrender marijuana, i surrender oxy, dxm, dmt, vicodin, meth, uppers downers, shrooms, little asian women........................WHAT ELSE?!?!?!?!? I surrender my doctors, my nurses, i surrender the ouchy needles they always want to put in my arm. I surrender the blood in my veins, i surrender Jessica, i surrender planes, i surrender pepsi cola, and cheeze, and crackers, and kind gestures that will never be forgotton. I surrender ease droppers, and toilets.............my goodness what else can there be??? I surrender Ben Allen, mitchell burns, ashley schaffer, and alex e, and ryan e. i surrender jared....................duh thats a no brainer..............................garry, anger, pride, resentment, forgiveness, happiness, love, computers, porn, child molesters, killers, robbers, lovers, happy happy happy happy thoughts, i surrender those too. ;+) wink wink nudge nudge. I surrender Jack black, and tyler morningstar(long live the INDIANS) i surrender real estate, and bruce helton(my good buddy who has a nice car, and is really good with computers.) i surrender his mom, and her mom, and her grate aunt shela who lost her hearing in the 4th grade, and the kids always made fun of her cuz her voice was a little bit different than everyone else.........and it was sad, but she was such a sweet person. HOW DARE THEY JUDGE HER?!?!?!?!? I surrender peter kim, andy e, jacob kim, and canterbury apartments............i surrender waking up naked in a hall way confused and a little dizzy.............why do i smell like chestnuts????? I surrender al, carin, johnny, and vegas in general. I surrender every sad sole/hooker that romes the streets every day tryin to make a buck....................you deserve so much better girls. I surrender that guy who pointed out my shaky legs in front of everyone and made me feel like an ass, and i surrender the nasty comment i made about him behind his back. I surrender long crazy hallways, and i surrender cronik????? wait....................omg that is cronic?!?!?!?!? suites? tables? VIP WHAT? I surrender nick, and tyler b., olivia, their parents, travis s., i surrender the truck that i smashed into the pole. I even surrender the truck i stole when i was really drunk and on mushrooms then took it on some railroad tracks, destroyed it, left it, walked to house, got dropped off.............i surrender everything i ever stole....................bad habbit, but almost an addiction, just like anything else. I surrender sex, i surrender sexy, i surrender blond hair blue eyes, 5'11", i surrender fitness, i surrender children, i surrender future happiness...........everything i am thinking of god. i want to surrender to you. take it all please. thankyou, good morning, good night, all that stuff...........................Man i really need that stem cell transplant....................................i surrender money i don't have, money i do have, i surrender chris heidenreich...................what a name huh???i think it is german, or at least has german roots. I surrender a woman coming into my life and making me feel like i have been reborn. thankyou god, thankyou mom, dad, mer, brandy, john.............everything



i surrender
i surrender
i surrender, i surrender sololover
hey, i even surrender masturbation!!!!!!!! oops, i said it, sorry.....no i'm not.
i surrender blue sky's, and love and emotions, and infertilness, and possiblilties....................i surrender everything i care about, and everything i will care about in the future. all of it.

done

living life to the fullest, on the edge, hardcore till the day i die.

Yo, i am me. me is mikey. mikey is real. i live the way i live because i want to. i am confident. i am strong. i will no longer live because i feel presured to live. i am free.

Okay, so today i woke up on my own accord. This suprised me because i thought my mom was going to wake me up super early, so i could help her at boxed delites.

So, my day started off with a little dental inspection/cleaning. Doc. says i got a good set of teeth, and a big mouth. Okay okay, stop laughing.

So, here is a picture getting my teeth scratched a lil bit. She done did me a good job. Me teeth are nice and happy. :+)





Man, i am a stud huh?





Okay, so after dentist issues were resolved, my mom picked me up and off to boxed delites i went. It was awesome cuz i was having fun, and i got to play with big knives and cut stuff in half.
I got to cut all kinds of things, such as apples, peaches, onions, peppers, and so on and so forth. It was great, i had fun and my mother and i enjoyed each others presence.After that, i went out to eat with my best buddy jared. It was a lof of fun, we talked our friend derrick into coming out and enjoying some wings with us. Great Time!!! I am always enlightened after i get to have an intelectual conversation with Jared. Truely a good man.


M/S Update:
Okay, now for my least favorite part of the blog, the m/s update. As of now we are giving the insurance company our last appeal. This is the appeal where doc. Burt(guy who thought up stem cell transplant for m/s) talks to the head money spender at Anthem. Who knows what will happen, only God i suppose. Good enough for me. So, as far as how is the m/s? well, i had an attack yesterday, it was so crazy, it lasted about 4 hours, i got voilently ill, and lots of diareah, like uncontrolled bowels. Not fun, then just as fast as it came on, it was gone. Very neat situation. I saw got next to me the whole time.

Hello, michael here, i am working for christ. How may I help you?

God is so friggin awesome. Okay, so i was having a bad little m/s attack today, it was odd cuz it only lasted like 4 or 5 hours, then it was completely gone. very odd, and very scary, pretty grose too. I really hate M/S!!!!!!!!!

anyways, God turned something really bad into something really good. WOW WOW WOW WOW, he is so good to me. If you want to know the story get in touch with me, i will tell ya, it is pretty amazing how God works in your life when you want him to. :+) :+) :+)
That paragraph above gets 3 smiley faces because it is so true, so friggin true.




LOVE YOU GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!YOU ARE THE LEADER OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!THANKS FOR MY VEGAS EXPERIENCE< THAT WAS PRETTY COOL!!!!!!!!! p.s. if you want to get in touch with me you can do one of the following
a: call me on my cell (260)433-2543 ~i prefer this method~
b: send me a text message (260)433-1543
c: send me an E-mail mobileRILEY@gmail.com
d: Pray really hard that i call you, this method actually works, it's pretty amazing, but just try it. Pray really really hard that i get it put on my heart that you want me to call you, and i will. Promise. ;+)


Sincerely,
-Mikey

Drama Drama Drama

There is always drama in my life. If it isn't my mom telling me i am fat, then it is a friend acting crazy on drugs. I tell you what, i can't hide from drama any more than a honey bee can hide from sweet sweet rose bushes. Ohhhh boy, anyways.......I slept all day, a very uncomfortable sleep none the less. I have been hot hot hot. It is my core body temperature. Now, Doc. Kolar at the indiana center for m/s WOULD tell you it is because we havn't taken enough pills, and we just need to take more pills, more more more pills. I would tell you it is because i have m/s and i need a stem cell transplant. Who is right???? I guess we could wait till we die and ask God, but why wait that long? and why mess with death and all it's messyness.

I found out today that my cousin cassie is pregnent again. This will be the 3rd one by the same ass hole. Ohhhh, the other day the babies daddy came over, broke the restraining order, and attacked cassies dad. Cassie's mom hit him with a bat, and the cops came and took him away. Some girls just don't learn. I don't get it, she knows he is an ass hole, but she continues to let him stick it in her?!?!?!?!? anyone else confused? This man, wait this nigger, is violent, and just an excused for life. Yet, he can create 2 beautiful girls. Very beautiful girls. Who knows what is cookin in the oven. It is sad, i love cassie, but i hate it when she makes horrible decisions. Kind of like my sister merideth, i love her to death, but i hate her decisions. It is very frustrating.I have been very frustrated lately. With my everything!!!!!!

Viva Las FUN!!!!!!

Ya ever hear the old "saying" a picture is worth a thousand words? well, i am a firm believer in this saying and i am going to save myself about 27 thousand words. Enjoy the vegas picture show.

we were driving to see the hoover dam in this picture above.

below this is a slightly blurry picture of the Blue Men. There was fungus amungus.

this beautiful blonde woman below is Jessica. I met jessica on the plane from Vegas to Minisota. It was so much fun to talk with her, i pretty much gave her my life story, and just tried to be a good person. She is a fitness trainer in vegas, and is going to make a man very lucky some day.

The hoover dam was so awesome, and so so so so friggin huge!!

Below is a picture of Drake, i think his name was drake, I let him play a basketball game on the PSP my friend let me borrow, he was black. He was my friend.

Above is the circus casino, and below is an awesome painting on a cealing, it was so friggin beautiful.

These were 2 beautiful asian women standing in front of my heroes. The Blue Men!!!

This was a huge ass fish, look at it!!!! friggin huge.

I had so much fun in vegas, almost too much fun. wait, i take that back. U can never have too much fun. My two good buddies Mike & Garry made this possible, we both had so many unique amazing stories, i couldn't possibly tell them all. I have amazing memories in my head, and some pretty cool pictures in my phone and camera, i havn't even gotten those bad boys developed, maybe i will get the pictures from my camera developed onto a disc.